I’m sitting in the train on my way home having my laptop sitting on my lap.
A new ring on my left hand accompanies me as a souvenir for a nice weekend with friends in Hamburg.
A weekend that has shown me what I really want in my life:
To be free and to follow my heartbeat.
Forgetting the big plan for life
I am probably the greatest preacher of life but still it is hard for me to live it.
For my friends I seem to be the happy traveler.
Yes, I am.
I travel and I am happy.
There are no big plans in my life.
And at the same time I am constantly confronted with situations in which I have to decide:
Money or time.
Bread or quinoa.
Home or traveling.
We want to experience something new
When I packed my things over a year ago, I did not know how long I would be traveling with a 45-liter backpack on my small back.
Even today I do not know.
I am not able not decide.
But that’s alright.
I have learned to let the time decide and I trust that life carries me.
And then the decision comes from all alone.
It’s our journey
Young people are afraid to miss something.
Yes, I also admit it.
I’m afraid to miss something.
We accept all offers and keep other options open.
Just because we have the option to decide later – or not even at all.
Sometimes we forget to decide.
Then it will be too late.
And then we say: I wish I would have done it.
But as I said, then it’s just too late.
Relax and have a seat
I am currently in the process of accepting exactly these situations.
I missed to pay my pension in the past 18 months.
I recently missed buying a train ticket.
I missed to keep my fingers away from chocolate.
I missed a lot.
But that’s okay.
Because I decided.
I decided to be happy with the situation in which I am.
This is exactly what I feel and that is what I am living for.
I want more from life.
I want to see where it carries me.
I am no longer looking but let life carrying me.
Perhaps my heart is not only happy.
There is also a lot of fear. Very much fear, actually.
But that is alright and I have resigned myself to it.
After all, life is exciting and I do not want to miss it any day!
Accept life as it is
I have to decide.
But not today.
I trust that everything goes its way and everything comes with time.
As long as I listen to my intuition, I can not go so far.
So I see at least the whole thing.
No matter how you live your life: Be happy with what you do!
Be happy with yourself.
And just live.